#mumlife

You often see on social media #mumlife... what exactly does that mean?

To me #mumlife is a mixture of many different emotions, feelings and thoughts.

The one thing that stands out to me most when I think about being a mother is LOVE. I had never experienced a love like the love I have for my children.
It's the kind of love that fills every fibre of your body. The kind of love that keeps you up at night worrying about how they're going to get through in life. The kind of love that can make you tear up just thinking about how much you love those little souls who have blessed you with this label of Mum.
Being a mum is single handedly THE hardest thing I have ever done and THE best thing I have and will ever do. Being Mum is hard in all the good ways...

I've  had to learn to be selfless and put others before myself.
I've had to learn to be humble and admit when I am at fault.
I've  had to learn to be firm and follow through with warnings I have given, when it's much easier to just give in.
I've  had to learn to be forgiving and ask for forgiveness.
I've  had to learn to be patient, patience really is a virtue.
I've  had to learn to be tolerant and kind.

All the above traits I mentioned are a work in progress. They are traits that I sometimes fail at and sometimes exceed at.

I had to learn that although sometimes it feels like you lose a little bit of yourself in the depths of raising small children. You actually become a better version of yourself when you learn to forgive yourself of your short comings and accept the beautiful crazy mess that is #mumlife.

I like a lot of other mums, I'm sure had a vision of the kind of mother I wanted to be. A perception of what I thought #mumlife would be and the kind of mum I'd be... It's easy to have preconceived ideas about something until you actually are living it.

The reality is so much better then the idea of it was.

The raw emotions I've felt and experienced as a mother are beyond any idea I had of what I could feel.

The feeling you have when a newborn is placed on your chest for the first time is single handedly THE best experience I have and will ever have in this lifetime. I can remember each of my four childrens first minutes vividly. They are all unique and special in their own way.

When I found out I was pregnant with Frankie I went into a little bit of a panic, not knowing how I could possibly love anyone more then I loved Callie. How you love a boy compared to a girl? Would I love him as much? All these crazy ideas ran through my mind.
Towards the end of his pregnancy I just wanted him out, I was ready to love him and not be pregnant.
The minute he was placed on my chest, I felt like my heart had doubled in size. Loving him and his future siblings from the minute I met them was the esiest thing to do. The love just kept growing, it was actually easier to love the more children I had.

This #mumlife thing is full of so many emotions, feelings and thoughts. It's a long road of self discovery. I quite often feel like I'm failing and hope to goodness I'm not screwing my children up too bad on the way.

This #mumlife thing is the best thing I could have ever decided to do with my life, and it is just that! It's a life choice that I have made and I am extremely blessed and grateful that I get to do #mumlife with my four amazing, beautiful, incredible, precious and slightly crazy children!