You know what I am talking about? Yeah?! (Don't pretend you don't)
Well tonight was one those nights. So instead of giving him the silent treatment or acting like a crazy lady and ending up in a puddle of tears due to my crazy hormones that haven't fully settled down since I had Charlie. Who am I kidding, I'm just sensitive and end up either crying or blowing up which then leads to crying anyway. Instead I handed him a crying baby and turned his TV off. I did put said crying baby to sleep and he put the older two to bed so I decided I would forgive him and then why not blog about how we came to be?!
I thought about the title I wanted for my blog long and hard. I wanted something catchy and that summed up my life!
It is Jared and Me plus four and the more is what makes up the You and Me!
The good, the bad and the crazy times...
Really if your husband was absolutely perfect all the time you'd have nothing to complain about or whinge to your girlfriends about from time to time! What else would we talk about apart from our kids?! Haha
Seriously though I love Jared, like he is my world and I couldn't imagine life without him and I am not just saying that. But I wouldn't be human if he didn't annoy the absolute crap out of me at times.
It's funny how people like to tell you that you are too young to get married, that you are throwing your life away. I am sure some people thought we wouldn't last getting married young. We were kids after all, 19 years young. When I look at photo's of us dating, we, well Jared looks about 12. People always like to give you advice on marriage when you get engaged. Some of it helpful, others not so much. A bit like when you get pregnant and everyone feels the need to tell you all the gory details of labour etc... (They seem to always miss out the part about haemorrhoids - that's a whole other story)
The two things I always remember and try to apply to my marriage are:
1. Never go to sleep without making up.
2. Don't marry someone thinking you can change them, they are who they are. Love them for their strengths and weaknesses.
I met Jared when I was freshly 18. A young insecure, low self esteem 18 year old. I wasn't in a very good place in my life and he saved me. He was my knight in shining armour, rode in and scooped me up and made me feel loved, safe and semi-happy. Semi-happy doesn't sound that great, but I had a lot of work to do on myself. (whole other post)
The first time I laid eyes on him was in Brisbane where we were setting up for my brothers wedding, fun fact... My brother was marrying Jared's sister. (No we were not related) When I first saw Jared he was wearing a tight singlet top, with a ripped cap, up a ladder hanging up streamers. I just saw his arms! I got chatting to him and we hung out that night, the next day was the wedding and I followed him around like a dog chasing a bone. He played hard to get in front of his family, by the next day we were inseparable and he asked me to be his girlfriend! I was besotted.
Jared and I dated for six months,before we got engaged, or should I say before I made him propose to me! Haha. One and a half months of those six months were over the phone with me in Tasmania and him in Emerald. We spoke on the phone for hours everyday during that time and I was discussing baby names with him by week two, Callie was my girl name! ;)
I came to Emerald for a ten day holiday to visit Jared and never left. Six months is not a long time, I think Jared would have preferred to date for longer... Poor guy didn't stand a chance, I accidently ordered a wedding dress off Ebay before he'd even popped the question. How does one accidently order a wedding dress you might ask? Well being a novice Ebayer (it's totally a word) I bid on a cute dress... thinking that 100 other people would bid on the same dress and I possibly couldn't win it. I received an email the next day...
"Congratulations Cassie Watson on winning the bid on item #326541651651 - Ivory Wedding Dress"
Eeeekkk, so that was an awkward conversation... "Hey Jared, I accidently won a dress on Ebay.. aha"
I won't go into the details of that conversation, but we're married so it all worked out!
So September 21st 2007 I had organised for Jared to propose to me the following day, everything was set. I had bought a fake ring from Kliens, made him call my dad and ask permission. I had even organised a picnic lunch for us to go to the dam (Saturday) for him to pop the big question!
So Saturday 22nd I wake up super excited for the day ahead...
That was until Jareds younger brother and sister asked if they could come on our picnic lunch, I said no, they put on the water works. His youngest two siblings were basically our 3rd and 4th wheel, they came everywhere with us. (I moved into his family home and shared a room with his little sister, we didn't live together till we got married.)
Jared felt bad so said they could come... I was pretty disappointed. I had it all planned out! He promised me it would happen before the end of the day, so we went about our day and had our picnic with our tag alongs. I of course was on tenderhooks the rest of the day waiting for the question!
I really don't like suprises, I like to know when things are happening and obviously like to be the organiser.
The day went on, he took me out for dinner and to the movies. We were driving home and my heart was sinking, the day was nearly over and he hadn't asked me. The perfect day I had planned had been a total flop. How dare he not go along with my elaborate engagement plan!
So we're driving home and I am crying on the inside... Just before we get back to the house, Jared pulls the car over on the side of the road, reaches into the glove box and pulls out my beautiful $20 fake diamond ring. I will always remember what he said... "Are you ready for this commitment Baby?" 18 year old me, "YES! I thought you'd never ask!!"
Jared has been the best thing I never knew existed. He drives me absolutely bonkers and yet holds my heart in his hands. He has loved me and in return I have been able to grow into myself. I have loved him warts and all and he has grown into the most amazing man, father and husband. Him loving me has helped me to find out who Cassie really is, through tears, tantrums and crazy psychotic meltdowns. He knows my skeletons, my weaknesses, my strengths. He loves me through my highs and lows.
He really is my best friend and I couldn't imagine doing this life, parenting, marriage thing with anyone else.
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| Our wedding day Feb 2008 |
Even when I want to bottle him or runaway!
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